The Person I Would Rather Be.

I decided to start this online journey for a couple of reasons. One, anonymity. I have zero people following me. I have told zero people that I’m doing this. Why? If I told anyone, then they would know it was me. I want this to be a place for people to share their stories and their feelings and have a wonderful sense of community. A community I feel like I have lost... more about that later... I’m just a person trying to connect without any filters. Two, I need healing. I am hoping to find that here. My brother once told me that I was an attention seeker. That I needed everyone’s approval in order to feel good about myself. I would never admit this to him, but he was right... But not for the reasons he thinks. I spent the better part of my childhood being emotionally abused by my father and brothers. Meanwhile, my mother told me to “just ignore them.” After an entire childhood of being told you’re not good enough, you’re fat, you’re worthless, you start to believe it. I do need appro...